Life is complicated once it starts to irritate you in all angles....
it starts at first in front of you... from your teachers humiliating in front of the class, then your classmates tease you a lot (until you freakin cry), then you get criticism from people who absolutely doesn't care on what you feel..
then 2nd at the back of you... you would just realized that your own group of so-called friends would even neglect you to the outmost point that they will even confront you and tell you that you ain't worth being a friend(back to number 1)...
then 3rd at your side... you would just notice it while walking at a local mall that your own friends friend are gossiping and pointing fingers at you and laughing that all what they have fucking heard in school about you.... take that from your friends, huh, piece of crap.. you already have to spend 8 years with snobs and worthless shit half of your life and then you'll hear it in public places that even you don't care.... and the only place where you are suppose to feel relief is a good place to roam around and even that place is swarming with insects
then 4th on top... why on top... you just notice it in a local activity in school that you just felt something fell in your head... okay if it's bird poo or something but ROCKS.... 2 INCH rocks... they're ain't even pebbles falling from the sky and i have to deal with ROCKS... it's okay if it happens once... but twice... FUCK the person who threw them... not having a grudge on someone...
But you know what i have learned from my past....
1) Never ever have friends that are so plastic... you'll notice it in a few weeks from one of your circle, but one of them maybe a trusted one but he/she is also bias in your decision and the other group therefore, have friends from a different school...
2) Teachers are better to be closed than your classmates.. coz one you could get good ideas from them, tips on life, and goood incentives at time to time... it's like baking a cake and then eating it too...
3) Avoid people who'll only comes to you when you are needed. Example: a classmate of yours who you aren't close with came up to you and ask favors first it'll starts with a piece of paper, then it will be ballpen(didn't return after use, then didn't thanked you afterwards), then only cheats on you in chem class because your good at it... F.U. to those people!!!!!!!!!
4) There are alot of jerks in my highschool because i am actually surrounded by all of them.. some maybe the geekier ones(but still they are consider popular coz the awards that they gave to the school and I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I AM FRIENDS WITH THEM!!!!!!), then they're are the varsity ones(too popular well known for shooting three point, winning competitions from intramurals, and whatsoever<<< SCREW THIS PEOPLE), then the OTHERS(what are these others, they are those typical students who are only average quiet discreet of their appearances but they are their, BUT THIS PEOPLE ALSO ARE A PIECE OF SH!TZ<<< silent but more deadlier than other part of the society in the classroom), lastly the class bullies(these are the people who uses people, blackmailing them whatever they want to get from you, do anything to you to make you the piece of shit of worth you really have)
PS: Its better to avoid these people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5) Find a proper place to be in solace or free by yourself(what i did, nearly killed me though...!)
So therefore find your inner peace or find a place to be by yourself>>> Chapel suitably....
6) Nothing is greater than talking with a priest time to time... share emotions cost it'll help..
Psychiatrist may do(but it'll cost you per hour)....
there are more... but the only thing i did right now... coz i am actually away from those people is to avoid them....
Good Luck with your life
Hope yours would be better than mine
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Saturday, May 1, 2010
A Mother's Day Letter
Dear Mom,
i know you want what's best for me, but did you ever inquire about what i want that is best for me.
Your opinion only benefits what you want and what other people wants. You only want other people to like you for what you have but beneath those glamorous clothes, branded and stylish bags is a person who works hard, looks old enough to be my grandmother, and try to plan something that soon will never happen.
You always think of things that you want for the future but never always plan it. You are trying to impress the people in our hometown all the things that you have, the place where you stayed in and everything but those people once insulted you, made you feel worthless in every situation you have been so far even up to now and only chosen a few will you only consider a true one.
Whenever you come home people we always think that you are someone but when i realized what you have done so far your presence has been so irritable that i'd feel useless in your presence and consider everybody a threat from my friends. You want e to be friends with people who are high in power, rich and obviously a social climber. I don't want to be friends with people who are like that coz its hard to impress people like that because they will not appreciate the simple things in life.
Of all the people i have met you are the only person that i want to go away because all you thought that i am fine and okay being here beside you all the time but sometimes i feel that my world will crumble every second i hear your voice trying to give me your future plans, and giving me advice on what to invest in my life (but in reality you of all people will ONLY benefit it).
I feel your stupidity will rub on me whenever i am near you. i feel all you said so far was more of what you want for your own life not mine. i always thought before that my hate for you was just a phase but when it all piles up i consider you a threat in my plan in life, a hindrance to every goals that i want to reach and a parasite from what i will soon earn for myself.
I will always love you but my respect for you has already faded the time i graduated on my first course. Because you consider me liar and a threat to our family....
i hope you won't suffer all the debt that you have cause unto yourself. All the lies that you have told me, choosing other people than your own kids and trying to buy us off with material things.
from your 2nd son.
PS:
No more hugs & kisses coz you don't need one.
i know you want what's best for me, but did you ever inquire about what i want that is best for me.
Your opinion only benefits what you want and what other people wants. You only want other people to like you for what you have but beneath those glamorous clothes, branded and stylish bags is a person who works hard, looks old enough to be my grandmother, and try to plan something that soon will never happen.
You always think of things that you want for the future but never always plan it. You are trying to impress the people in our hometown all the things that you have, the place where you stayed in and everything but those people once insulted you, made you feel worthless in every situation you have been so far even up to now and only chosen a few will you only consider a true one.
Whenever you come home people we always think that you are someone but when i realized what you have done so far your presence has been so irritable that i'd feel useless in your presence and consider everybody a threat from my friends. You want e to be friends with people who are high in power, rich and obviously a social climber. I don't want to be friends with people who are like that coz its hard to impress people like that because they will not appreciate the simple things in life.
Of all the people i have met you are the only person that i want to go away because all you thought that i am fine and okay being here beside you all the time but sometimes i feel that my world will crumble every second i hear your voice trying to give me your future plans, and giving me advice on what to invest in my life (but in reality you of all people will ONLY benefit it).
I feel your stupidity will rub on me whenever i am near you. i feel all you said so far was more of what you want for your own life not mine. i always thought before that my hate for you was just a phase but when it all piles up i consider you a threat in my plan in life, a hindrance to every goals that i want to reach and a parasite from what i will soon earn for myself.
I will always love you but my respect for you has already faded the time i graduated on my first course. Because you consider me liar and a threat to our family....
i hope you won't suffer all the debt that you have cause unto yourself. All the lies that you have told me, choosing other people than your own kids and trying to buy us off with material things.
from your 2nd son.
PS:
No more hugs & kisses coz you don't need one.
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